I saw him today, in crisp white long-sleeved shirt that was untucked and had all buttons opened -exposing white sando underneath - and black slacks that fit his thighs beautifully. He wore a black chained necklace with a crucifix. Midnight was off to work that day and i decided to have a nice cup of coffee at the nearest cafe that the owner called "Amoure". Then the air just seemed to change and i look up to see him-- Zephyrus. I couldn't help but think of how good-looking he was, how dominating, how gentle.
Then like a scene from a classic movie, this beautiful long-legged woman came up to him and hugged him from behind. I watched as he laughed and turned around to pinch her nose playfully. I noticed that she was really beautiful - with peaceful eyes and seemingly innocent lips. If anything, she looked like an angel. I felt a gripping feeling in my heart as she slowly raised her head to kiss him.
And it really hurts to admit that they looked so good in each other's arms, kissing like the whole world didn't matter.. like all she ever needed was him..
Now, sitting alone at the balcony, i suddenly felt so empty. Even with Midnight's picture waving at me from the living room's table which was visible from where i stand, it all suddenly seemed bland and gray.
And it showed.
..
"What's wrong?", Midnight asked over dinner. He was looking at me worriedly like i looked as though I'm dying or something.
"I'm just not feeling well.", i answered.
He nodded and inspected me once again, searching my face for anything. "What is it?", i asked blankly and swallowed a spoonful of pasta.
"It's just that i need to leave after our dinner and you don't seem alright, i'm worried." he replied. There was some sort of festivity in their hometown and his family --and i do mean family-- called to talk to me this afternoon asking me to come but i refused due to this big advertisement project given to me --which is the truth. Fortunately, they understood and even offered me help which i thank them for. And so, came tonight. Midnight's bound to travel there (which takes about 8 hours) tonight and stay there for 3 days. The weather was good and the road was clear so there are no necessary fears of accidents or whatever.
I smiled at him at caressed his face, "I'm just tired, don't worry about me. I'm a man remember?", then i laughed.
He sat there, quietly. Then smiled and held my hand. "I'll call you from time to time, take care alright?"
"I will. You too. Tell them i wish i could come, have fun!", i said cheerfully.
Half an hour later, he was off and i lay on my bed, thinking of the woman Zephyrus kissed and held in the cafe this morning.
"What a crazy day," i whispered to myself.
..
"There's a storm coming," Jenine said from her cubicle while she was busy fixing her hair, "a BIG one."
"The news?", i asked.
"Yep. Said it was gonna come tonight until tomorrow, good thing that's our day off.", then she laughed. "Aren't you scared of thunder and lightning?"
"Ha-ha", i laughed sarcastically, "like you're not huh?"
"Whatever." she said, rolling her eyes. I chuckled and then we both started working again.
A storm was coming. A big storm, but i bet it ain't as ferocious as the storm that Zephyrus brought to my life.
..
As expected, the weather began to rake through the city at around 11:00 pm. I sat before the fireplace and set the volume of the stereo at maximum to dissiminate the thunder that always managed to have me leap off and yell like a baby. I hate thunderstorms, i hate them.
I was buried below layers of blankets when i heard someone pound at the door. I felt my temper flare at the person, whoever he or she was, who callously banged at the door like he or she owned it. My anger sort of overrode my fear of the raging storm so i angrily opened the door, "What?!"
Normally, a normal person should've been more careful but i wasn't so normal these past few days. Fortunately, the man who stood outside my door was not a killer or a rapist or a freaking psycho,because there stood Zephyrus, soaking wet and breathing harshly, "I'm not alright.", he said and went straight to my bed without my invitation. I should've yelled at him but i didn't. I've grown too tired of pretending not too like him anyway. To hell with my head, I'm letting my heart take charge tonight. When i'm not so confused then perhaps i'll go and blame it on the storm or on the lightnig bolts and the thunder. But tonight, I'm letting my heart take charge.
"I saw you with a beautiful woman yesterday," I said as i handed him a coffee and sat on the bed with him. I was drying his head with the towel when i heard him reply, "You're jealous." It wasn't a question, it was a statement. Then he held my arms and pinned me down, "It's about time you stop pretending that you don't need me, that you don't want to be with me as much as i do.Where's your boyfriend anyway?", he asked and glanced around.
"He's not here."
His eyes went back to me and i saw him grin, "I can make love to you then?"
"Yes", i said breathlessly. The thunder raged and i closed my eyes in fear. "Make that stop, it's killing me."
"Screw the storm, i won't let anything or anyone hurt you til i'm around.", then he kissed me passionately that sent tremors down my spine. I rolled over to lie on top of him, "Who's that woman?", i demanded and as i unbuttoned his damp shirt and grazed his chest with kisses, "No one.", he answered and held my face to kiss me on my lips.
I pulled back and took off my shirt. I leaned on to him and let my hair touch his face, "No one?", i asked again, raising an eyebrow. He chuckled and rolled me over that he was on top of me again, "No one. You're the only someone in my world right now."
"So how many no ones are there?", i asked like a jealous girlfriend and pushed him off me. I grabbed a jacket and sat on the foot of the bed. He was laughing his head off as he went behind me and held me tight, I can feel his breathing on my nape.
"I got rid of all of them before i went here.", he whispered coyly. "I missed you."
"I love you.", i whispered back. I felt the way he stiffened and heard the ragged beating of his heart, like all of a sudden, his world stopped. He angled my face that we were staring straight into each other's eyes, "I hate you for making me miss you. And for singing me that song that night. I hate you for making me fall in love with you, for dating that 'no one ' woman with long beautiful legs.", to my horror the tears began to fall. He wiped them all away and kissed me so tenderly like i might break if he wasn't so careful.
"Took you long enough stranger.", he said, smiling as he brought me to bed. We shed our clothes and i forgot the fears, even the lightning and the raging thunders seemed so beautiful to me.
'Marry love, marry rich my dear. But most of all, marry the angel who never fails to struck your fears and bring them to hell -- away from the paradise of the love he gave to you. It's not about how long he has been there, but how in spite of the truth that you have never seen his face before, you see your lifetime in his eyes. Never fear love my dear, never fear love.'
I can hear my granny's voice like she was urging me to go on. The angel who kisses like the devil is the man i am with right now in my bed. As complicated and unreasonable this may all seem when morning comes, at least i know now that this all began because i fell in love.
And if that's not enough,
I'll blame it on the thunder.
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